If you only knew/Ode to Todd
- Behind the song “Ode to Todd”
- The roar of engines seemed to fill this long tube but yet so far away from the numbness that prevailed. The trip to Phoenix would have been a pleasant one to see my sister Dawn arriving from Portland who I hadn’t see in some years. But this was the most unpleasant of trips because her son who was living in Phoenix had taken his life. It would also be my first encounter with Gloria his mate and her need to be comforted as well. We have all faced similar circumstances where we are left with the inability to appease the moment. Todd was a genuinely sincere person with too many confusing and negative consequences during his upbringing that intruded upon his adult life. We found during our time there that Todd had ask a question to his internet contacts
- “If one continues to hurt God, wouldn’t it be better to commit suicide and stop hurting God” A few days later he was found in the garage in the car he had attached the hose connecting the exhaust to the interior. Sadly Todd was just one sad consequence of the thousands of good people who have been hurt by the things they see and feel in a world so out of balance. Teddy his little dog who he loved so much seemed to be reflecting the very pain that Todd must have felt. His step-son Tyler admired his kindness as well as the hundreds of business and email contacts he had.
- Each one deals with the moment in different ways and mine was to put my feelings in the song, “Ode to Todd” that was written during the return flight. I have always loved Todd and we talked on the phone about him coming to Florida for a visit, which I had been looking forward to. Now I only wish it could have intercepted this history. The moment can’t be changed but we can be comforted by the fact that death can be undone. John 5:28,29 states, . “Do not be amazed at this, for the hour is coming in which all those in the memorial tombs will hear his voice and come out…”
LYRICS
By ELTon Hendrix
IF YOU ONLY KNEW-ode toTODD
TREMBLING — I COULD FEEL TEDDY S TREMBLING HEART BEAT
HIS EYES — SEARCHING WITH UNCERTAINTY
“WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO ME”
“WILL I REALLY SURVIVE”
IT SEEMED TO BE —– THE EYES OF ANOTHER FACE
COULD IT BE —– JUST A SHADOW OF YOUR REALITY
YOU SAID GOODBYE ONE NEW YEARS MORN’
YOU COULDNT T FACE ANOTHER DAY
A VICTIM SO TRAGICALLY TORN
A SCARED HEART.
AND A BURNT SOUL
A BROKEN CHILD SENT DOWN THE ROAD
(CHORUS)
TODD IF YOU ONLY KNEW WHAT YOU LONGED FOR
WAS FOLLOWING BEHIND YOU
O FRAGILE ONE
WHAT YOU WERE SO SEARCHING FOR
WAS RIGHT BEHIND YOU
SOMETIMES —— VISIONS ONLY COME IN THE AFTERMATH
THEIR VALUE —– ONLY IN THE WAKE OF LIFE IS IT ONLY AFTER YOUR GONE
WE COME TO REALIZE WHAT WAS LOST
TYLER —- PRAISED YOUR SELFLESS COMPASSION
SHARING — WITH THE DOWNTRODDEN SOUL
HUNDREDS ARE MISSING YOU NOW
GLORIA AND DAWN HOLD THEM IN THEIR HEARTS
YOU COULDN’T T FILL THAT HOLE SO DEEP SO ENTANGLING, SO INDISCREET.
SO SCRAPING OUT YOUR VERY SOUL
TODD IF YOU ONLY KNEW
WHAT YOU LONGED FOR
WAS FOLLOWING BEHIND YOU
O FRAGILE ONE
WHAT YQU WERE SO SEARCHING FOR
WAS RIGHT BEHIND YOU
IT WAS PLAIN TO SEE-THERE WAS AN ARTIST IN YOU
THE SINCERITY — HURT BY THE THINGS YOU KNEW
“CAN I REALLY MAKE SENSE OF IT” D7
“IS THERE A REASON WHY WE ARE HERE”
BURN T BRIDGES —- WITH ROAD BLOCKS SO VERY STRONG
KEPT YOU —- LOOKING WAY TOO FAR AND BEYOND
LIKE THE MAN THAT SEARCHED THE WORLD
UNABLE TO FIND THE TREASURES OF TRUTH
ONLY TO FIND-
JUST BY LOOKING BEHIND IT WAS THERE ALL THE WHILE
WITH OPEN ARMS
SO, IF YOU ONLY KNEW
WHAT YOU LONGED FOR
WAS FOLLOWING BEHIND YOU O FRAGILE ONE
WHAT YQU WERE SO SEARCHING FOR
WAS RIGHT BEHIND YOU
IT WAS WHAT YOU LONGED FOR
SOMEDAY YOU MAY KNOW
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